The need to express yourself and demonstrate who you are is frustrated by your own unwarranted inhibition. Insecurity keeps you from acting and responding freely. It is as if part of you is watching over your shoulder, putting the brakes on your more spontaneous, playful self. This not only affects you in social settings and your work environment, but it also limits your creativity.

Try to express your creativity without judging the result. Trust yourself. See what happens when you let go and "work without a net."

Freedom to live your life as you want is key to your current state of mind. You recognize the importance of considering your responsibilities when making decisions about your life but have not honored the responsibility you have to yourself. It may help to remember you can only be a source of happiness for others when you too are happy and content. 

It has been some time since you gave time to your own needs and desires. It is time to change that.
