You are in a struggle for independence and possessed by personal ambition. You will feel the need to work hard to establish yourself and your foundation. You are forward looking and even visionary. 

This is a period of struggle. It is a time when you may feel torn between your personal desires and your concerns for others. It can be a time marked by stubbornness and rigidity, characteristics you will have to keep in check. This duality between the lower desires and the higher realms of love can cause you much internal conflict. Secretly, you may feel torn between a desire to serve some greater good, and your ambition for personal accomplishment. You are aware of the needs of others. At the same time you are skeptical of ideals and idealists. You may tell yourself now that you must be realistic in your dealings with the world. But you must avoid shutting out the voice of your higher nature. Do not let your higher ideals go, lest you be guided exclusively by materialism and greed.

All too often, those in the 19 Essence finally resolve this conflict by conceding to personal ambition and selfishness. This can lead you to much trouble. People may perceive you as greedy and self-centered. Because you are driven by ambition, you may be attracted to people who have no other priority but personal gain. For some, this will lead to shady business practices and even brushes with the law.
This can be a time when you feel a need to pull back from others and become less social than during previous years. But this can lead to isolation. You may also feel frustrated because your ambitions want instant gratification, which the time does not allow.

The challenge during this time is to strike a balance between your worldly needs and your inner spiritual nature. The time requires much soul searching and a willingness to accept the perspective of others. Don't shut yourself off, or become jaundiced to your more idealistic brethren.

At the conclusion of the 19 Essence, the person is often better off materially, and far more independent, but there may also be a sense of disconnectedness from friends and loved ones. Therefore, it is important to work at maintaining close ties. Be open to others, and recognize that man does not live by bread alone.