A spiritual awakening is at the root of your current experiences. However, uncertainty you may feel could make it seem like quite the opposite. You are questioning old concepts and values, perhaps even your faith or religion. You may have doubts when not long ago, you did not even question these issues. 

This is common when change occurs, and especially true with deep, inner growth. This is a time to seek insight and clarity. Ask questions, seek answers, and trust the path you are on. 

You are seeking to access a more aggressive side of yourself. You need to know that you have a strong inner-core capable of confronting anyone and anything. However, although you have the ability to access this combative side it is not who you are, and it should be used in extreme situations only. Like a gun, it represents both security and danger, and should be handled with great care.