~first~, your 2 Expression, 1 Heart's Desire, and 1 Personality produces an arrangement that is complex (and potentially conflicting). The strong, driven, hard-charging 1 and the gentle, tactful 2 are each other's opposites in every way.

When you have such contrasting numbers, you often have to choose between the confrontational, sometimes even aggressive approach that comes naturally to your double 1 Heart's Desire, or the very different nature of your 2 Expression which is tactful, caring, and accommodating. At times, finding the middle road could be a challenge.

During the early years of your life, the conflicting traits of the 1 and 2 can be confusing and sometimes emotionally upsetting. Especially difficult are the years of early adulthood, when you have the will and freedom to go it alone but are still lacking the self-awareness that comes from having experienced both failure and success. Fortunately, as you get older, you will find it easier to balance these opposing energies.

The conflicting forces that may contribute to a difficult childhood are the same forces that have the potential to benefit you later in life. With practiced awareness you can develop strengths that merge the best of both worlds. You have the ability to take control of the forces that drive you, instead of being ruled by them. Finding balance, you have the potential to become self-assured and assertive rather than aggressive. Your meek and humble 2 finds quiet confidence, and you become an uncompromising yet diplomatic leader. You have the ability to be persistent and determined, while remaining flexible and open to changing circumstances. Finding this balance will be an important challenge in your life.

In your professional life, your Expression number is the most influential number in your chart. In your case, with a 2 in this position, you function best in a supporting role, but with considerable independence. You are a good judge of character and recognize other people's needs and desires. These traits will help you to gather and inspire team effort. The 2 has humility, and tends to prefer a hidden, background role. In your case, however, the drive and focus of the 1 Heart's Desire and 1 Personality supporting your 2 Expression, could well result in a remarkable career that puts you in the foreground instead. This combination has the potential to develop into a leadership role, most likely in business, politics, or art.

In your personal life, you will probably find your childhood and early adulthood to be very different from your life after age 30 or 35. During your formative years, you probably made friends but may have lost them just as easily, due in part to the uncompromising and unforgiving attitude of the 1 and (sometimes) unstable emotional side of the 2. Fortunately, those traits change around the time you enter your fourth 9-year cycle (after age 27). By the time you are in your early 30's, the confrontational personality of your youth should have changed dramatically.

Now let's look at each of your core numbers individually.